Touching the Extremes

I have failed at sticking to my goal of posting daily; however, I will get back on track starting NOW!

I have been struggling pretty hard lately with depression and am climbing out of what seems to be a pretty deep depression hole. Yet, with the help of friends and looking towards new and old goals with fresh insight is allowing me to take hold of my present moment more and more. I sometimes struggle with living in the future possibility rather than the present moment. I think dwelling on what could be is a distraction from dealing with the ongoing struggles I face living with mental health issues and just the ebb and flow of life. Not that I think living with bipolar disorder is completely a curse, unlike most I have a unique opportunity of touching the extremes of existence without any drug. I scrape the depths of despair and the bleak nothingness that is nonexistence while also swinging towards euphoric highs that blissfully entangle me with the heavens. Much like nature, I am polar. I am complex. I see the corners of existence and no matter how hard I try I can never brush anything under the rug. I am perfectly me as I traverse the ebb and flow of life.

With that being said, I hope to take this little corner of the inter webs I have woven for myself and continue to create community, share my journey and make space for others to do so as well, and ultimately kick ass while saving our planet from climate catastrophe. Anyone else in?

I am in total formulation mode with what all of that looks like as a business but am hoping to join my love of farming, food justice, community, inclusivity, and education into a powerful transforming model of business that represents the future of our planet rather than what has been.

Community Based vs Gift Based Holidays

I have a few thoughts about the current holiday season as we happen to find ourselves in the thick of it. Does anyone else feel pressure to spend money they don’t have on gifts that might be relevant for at most a couple of days? I want to explore how we can shift the association of holidays with getting/giving material possessions to a different kind of present (or better yet presence).

For years I have struggled with spending copious amounts of money I don’t have on gifts for my family and friends. Why does our culture focus so much on material wealth vs creating memories/spending time not $$/making meaningful connections over a time meant to celebrate a slowing down after a hard years work (post harvest).

I guess I am wondering about ways that I (and anyone out there in the void) can practice spending time not money, other non-consumer based traditions people practice, and other quirky things you can give via creating. Any ideas?

Anything Could Happen

Greetings fellow plant mamas, lovers of all good things, and my fellow trash humans:

I am writing this as Anything Could Happen by The Clean plays on repeat and my dog snores at my feet. I suppose this is a sort of leap into the abyss, the ether, or whatever you want to call it. So here we go.

I will be blogging over the next year about plants, farming, love, food, and what it means to be living in what I’m pretty sure is a dystopia. I want to create a community where women can connect and empower one another in dire times. I believe as women we hold the power to building a resilient future for our planet while creating community and inclusive environments. So this is it. A safe space for voices to be heard and to talk about all the fucking magical things in life.

Let’s do this. Yeah? Yeah.